Kelly Clarkson Opens Up About Being on an 'Emotional Roller Coaster': 'Everything Has Been Crazy'
Kelly Clarkson talks about the "emotional roller coaster" of the past few months.
In an interview with Glamor UK released on Tuesday, 38-year-old Clarkson said it was "stressful" to be working parents of toddlers and teenagers from home during the novel pandona virus pandemic (COVID-19).
"Everything was crazy," said the star in the interview that apparently was conducted by husband Brandon Blackstock before the release of her divorce.
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Clarkson said that she had to remind colleagues that she was a working mother - "and I'm not an absent mother. I'm a full mother," she said. "I already have problems with the task, so I don't want to pass it on."
The American Idol winner shares the 6-year-old daughter River and the 4-year-old son Remington with Blackstock, who is also the father of the 18-year-old daughter Savannah and the 13-year-old son Seth.
The talk show host stated that her "abandonment problems" are not something that she "will get rid of" someday, but something that "will always present itself".
"You get married and you say, 'Oh, I have no one to dance or walk me down the aisle. You know what? I'm not going to get married, just run away," she said.
Clarkson filed for divorce from Blackstock, 43, in Los Angeles on June 4, PEOPLE previously reported. The singer cited irreconcilable differences as the reason for the divorce and called her separation date "TBD".
The voice judge also said to Glamor UK: "Things always blow your mind, but at the same time you have to realize that it made you what you are. You are grateful and I am a very strong person. "
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"I am very confident and had to find that in myself. I was forced to do it when I was very young," she said. "At some point, I thank my father who passed away last year. But I thank him, because without all of that, I couldn't have been what I am now. So you just take the cards that are handed out to you and you do that Best you can. "
Clarkson said that each person has a "choice" how to "deal with the cards you receive".
Matt Baron / Shutterstock Brandon Blackstock and Kelly Clarkson
"And we all don't always make the right decisions," she said.
The singer also discussed the idea of self-love and said that this is the key to loving others.
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"Until you love yourself and love who you are, I don't think you can apply it to others," she said to Glamor UK. "You're just holding back and risking nice relationships that you might have with people simply because you haven't figured out your own harm yet."
Clarkson was photographed for the first time on Friday since the news of her divorce was released when she walked her dog in Los Angeles.
"Kelly spends time in LA with her children," a source told PEOPLE. "She was reserved and mostly stayed at home. She seems to be doing well."
Clarkson and her family had previously distanced themselves socially from their ranch in Montana.
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